Life Update.. last one..

This will be my last update on life.. lol.. unless something happens along the way.

(and.. well.. I'm too lazy to rewrite this, so this is from an email that I sent out yesterday to a group of mine..)

On the home front...
I have been kinda hesitant to post this, but well, I feel that I need to do it, because well, my address won't be changing.
After truly looking at my expenses and the cost of the apartment (and it is truly a great price), after paying Daycare (to my ex), Car insurance, Car Payment, Credit Cards, and then the apartment itself, I'd have about $100 left - and that was basing it off a "summer hours" paycheck, as winter is just 6 months away and money will be tighter then. The lady that I talked to at the Realty was really hesitant to let me rent with my credit score as low as it is (due to consolidating all my cards into one payment, and closing the accounts) and was willing to give it a try, but she didn't want me to get knee deep in crap and have no way out of the lease either, or get evicted because money was tight in the winter. The $100 would have left each month was to cover Gas, Food and Renters insurance (which I hadn't even looked into, but they suggested that I should have it)

I had a long long talk with my mom - we were on the phone for 3 hours! And well, my parents aren't perfect either. They have been married for 25 years, and I can't remember how many times my dad 'threatened' to move out, and mom would be there gladly helping him.. And vise versa (I remember mom came home drunk one night.. Late late at night... And Dad started throwing her clothes outside on the lawn... That was about 20 years ago!). But they were able to work through it all, and are still going strong. Charlie also had a long talk with his parents on Sunday night and found out that they too fight (he always thought that they never fought! Who doesn't?!) and also talked to them about personal things that has been eating him for the last 25 years... (Charlie was adopted from an orphanage in Guatemala when he was 8, and has had visions and such of his past that have been bothering him..he hates his past and had a really rough time before he ended up at the orphnage.. things like storms and firewords set him off cause it reminds him of the sounds of bombs....)

I don't think I was truly fair on my previous posts, as there are always 2 sides to every story, and well, I was just telling my side.
Charlie and I had a LONNNG talk. He feels that I spend too much time with my Internet friends and in my scrapbooking room. I think he spends too much fishing and with his cousin. (which Charlie has been a good influence on him, he's 16, and Charlie has been encouraging him to try to do well in school and that he needs to save his money that he is making at his grandparents farm. Charlie's parents will be taking responsibility of this boy for the winter while his grandparents vacation in Florida. Charlie's parents and the grandparents are sister/brother, and they all are in their 70's, so Charlie has been telling his cousin that he better behave at his parents house and not try to pull something lol) anyways, got way off topic there.. Charlie has been more than encouraging on my card sales - it was Charlie's mom that got me involved in all of them. And he doesn't complain when I spend my money on scrappy stuff... And then sometimes have an unexpected bill and need to borrow money until the next paycheck. There is a lot of good things that he has done. There has been many times where he has offered to help me with my cards, but usually I feel that he's "in the way" and then it doesn't go well. (and I'm selfish.. these are my toys and I have worked really hard to get them.. he won't let me use his drills or power tools, cause well, he's selfish with his toys too!)

We have decided to remain together, and seek counseling to see if that will help us. We are also going to do more things together, as I have drifted toward my room and he stays in the living room. We are planning for a trip to the Mall of America, so that I can go to Archivers, and there's a few things he wants to check out too. We are planning on the Renaissance festival in MN also, along with going back to our weekly Target trips to check out the clearance sections that somewhere down the road we stopped doing. I am going to *try* not to spend my entire days off on the computer (when we are both home) and to cook more 'real' meals. We were thinking of having a cookout before the end of summer and inviting a bunch of people from work to it.

Whew. Sorry for the long post. Thank you for listening, and thanks to everyone for the support that I have had for the last week.

**update** Today, I actually COOKED SUPPER! LOL, well, me and Betty Crocker did! But it was good, and wow, it didn't really take too long to make! Lovin' my oven!